I’m honestly feeling a bit shy since my last post. It was a very revealing and humbling experience for me to be able to share what I was going through, even if the details were tangled and blurred in the form of poetry.
The response I received from everyone was so kind … and I just wanted to let you all know how much it meant to me.
It’s all been a tough lately. I don’t want to disclose any information, because they are not my secrets to share, but I think I really needed that support. The kind that swoops in and catches you after you let a few walls fall down.
By writing that poem that I did about my cousin, and sharing it publicly, I think I finally made that necessary breakthrough in my writing. I’m going to keep channeling my feelings and pulling from the depths of my iceberg-heart to better my writing.
It should be interesting. I hope you’ll all stick around to watch my writing continue to grow. Your feedback and support really means the world to me, even if you’re just letting me know that you liked it.
I want to be better, both in writing and as a person. It’s all a journey. (I know I sound ridiculously cliche by using that word, but I don’t really care. Cliches are cliche for a reason you know–they’re real.)
I want to be more open, honest, and share more of myself and my stories. I mean, isn’t that part of being a writer?
It’s taken me years to grow comfortable with sharing my work, especially with the extreme set back of all those that told me they didn’t like my first book. But the more I share, and the more I let myself feel through my writing, the more I am encouraged and supported.
All of you that read my writing. All of you that encourage me to be better.
Thank you. You’ve really done a lot for me.
Like a geode, I’m going to crack my abilities open, let my emotions
and inner turmoil out though prose and verse, and I’m going to stop limiting myself to writing and behaving how I am expected to. I’m going to kick down the edges of the box, and not only think outside of it, but completely exist outside of it.
I carry a lot within me.
Love, sorrow, joy, anxiety, depression, determination, strength, weakness.
And I’m not going to keep it all inside me anymore.
Expect better poetry. Expect more novels in progress. Expect more off-the-cuff style writing. Expect me to rant more. Expect to get excited. Expect me to share more.
Maybe one day I’ll even blog more often.
There is a drive within me. A power that I can channel through my words and I am going to use it. Anyone that believes in me–I promise to make you proud.
I am going to do this. I’m going to be open and vulnerable and strong. And I am going to be great at it.
Thank you. You all have no idea what you’ve done, how much you’ve helped me.
Together, we’re all going to be great.
Stick around, everyone.